ohh pooooeey

have you ever look forward to something. to find out it was just a slap in the face at the door?
I've been through that too many times . so much that my face is numb and its like a daily routine. how am i suppose to say OMG MY SENIOR YEAR IS AMAZING. when its not. i understand its like been 2 weeks since school started and things probably haven't fell into place yet. well that's an understatement. Nothing really in these past 2 weeks really made me go WHOO THIS IS MY SENIOR YEAR AND THINGS ARE GOING TO HAPPEN. nope none of that sorry to burst your bubble, but this is no high school musical. I know somewhere in the near future things will brighten maybe its cause of the heat. but as for now i don't look forward to school like my past 3 years in highschool. its more of a shrug. I love being the sbp but my passion to have the school spirited is just another bitch slap to the face cause in reality kids at verdugo hate the school. they call it verdrugo i mean i am guilty for calling it that sometimes, but thats not the problem. the problem is i hate how kids come to me and go OMG ! we have to do this, this, this, and that. and they don't even follow through with one thing that happens at our school. well students. i apologize for my naggingness but HOW THE FUCK DO YOU EXPECT TO FOLLOW THROUGH WITH MY PLANS IF YOU DONT SHOW UP?. its not only that sports. ha like i see the team being so pumped and ready to win this year and the coach doesnt have shiet straight like are you joking? im here and im ready to dominate while you are doing some shiet and you think you sending me text saying you have to do something is going to make me feel any better? no. i can be in tennis they are dedicated coach is there. i love tennis too but basketball is my hype. i want to tennis because the people in there want to make it. i want that drive. the whole money thing is like a pain pay this pay that. and worst of all my mains are all pratically busy. like its so hard to find time to breathe when no one is there to tell you to calm down. stuck out like a sore thumb. no one to really sit down and ask if you are okay. like im sure they are stressing like i do and feel the way i do.people from time to time do ask how i am. its not that i dont want to reply my real answer its just too much. and once i say it what you are going to say is not gonna make it better. i don't need someone to sugar coat my shiet. i dont need pity. all i need is the time and energy i put into something returned. im not gonna seat somewhere and tell you that i want to cry and just drop everything i know my duties i know my life i know what i chose.i know the consequences.i know moping about it isnt gonna change anything. i know there's people out there in worse situations.

why have hope for something if you know its gonna be false.

Dear Jaddis Hy.

YOU BETTTER VISIT MISS JADDIS HY.
and bring your lips moisturized lips por favor i dont want to feel guilty;)

i don't normally post this but...

GUILTY PLEASURES......

yuppp if you take me to portos. i will love you forever.

What The Buck?!

August 3rd/4th 2010.<3
lol yea it was her birthday on the 4th. August 4th.
i already wrote to her on tumblr so. i would just like to post pictures and explain my side of the story that day.
Ok tried to message it out through face book so the plan will go smoothly turns out everything was planned on the day of which was august 3rd. Ok so i went to work then picked up suck then rushed home did my hurr and went to go take pics for yearbook and leadership :)
(man i seriously hope it doesnt turn out fugly)
anyways! so then dropped off suck cause the plan was originally that sandy suck and janice eventually couldn't make it and suck wanted to go sell her tickets. so got back home around 2 ish? called jan to make sure things are going according to plan then we talked on aim. i called vera to tell her dress nice and shiet cause earlier in the day i got the message that sandy was going to dress nice then we all had to dress nice so i called vera and made sure she was going to dress freaking nice! ok then later on i call up vera to tell her to come over though it was like 4ish and we werent going to leave til 8 so then called up suck and ask her if the plans are going the way we want it then find out that FREAKING VERA CALLED JAN AND THEY WOULD NOT STOP TALKING TO EACHOTHER somehow jan screwed up the story alittle and then i had to call to interuppt the convo and end it so then vera was on her way made sure i had no evidence on the computer for her to see when she came. so then she comes im like fuhhh so then we chill and things and im like going with the flow asking her what i should wear and she said wear the dress... then freaking get a call that i dont have to dress nice F^CK perfect timing right? like when vera tells me and we both agree and now i dont have to dress nice? fml. so i was like nah nah its gonna be cold trying to pull an excuse out of my ass to not wear it then i decide to say something like
l:let me wear your shirt!
v:uhhh?
l: yea lets switch you wear my dress and ill wear your shirt!
v:wtf! no you are wearing the dress
there was alot more then that which then resulted me tackling her trying to strip her for the shirt it was all a blur since i was just freaking out and stuff i mean it was majorty awkward just cause i was half naked pulling her shirt xD
c:lets go!
l&v: aight
suck: try to lag time as much as possible cause we want to seat outside on the patio.
so we lagged it and things and then they were talking about who likes what type of lexus or w.e and im like hyped for the surprise so i text suck telling her we are off the freeway and they got the table and shes like when you walk lag it ok then me and vera get off
c: right here?
l:yes thanks
v: why isnt your bro coming
l:uhh
c: ima go meet up with my friends at the parking lot ill come v: o.O ok
alright we get there and i stop her make her stand so i can figure out where the others are ask she told me to go look if i like. so then when i open the door i pointed and she was like
v:???
l: here!
v: uhhh?
l: SURPRISE!
s,s,j: SURPRISE
v:O.O :D :O in shock
lets just say that night was amazing. hahahah So yea. California Breezys. Mains. Suk.Janice.Vera.Liz.Sandy
Smart.Scary.Friendly.Socialize.Fantasize

phasing?

Lately I've been out of it I'm not gonna lie.
From Friends to School. I know its summer and i know its time for relaxing and stuff
but with the time im stuck with now from today to august 16 i don't believe I have enough time to even sit down and take a deep breath with this time restraint. It is understandable that you need my help its understandable that you need a friend. Its understandable that you need a leader. its understandable that you need a shoulder to cry on or ears to listen to. its understandable that you need a opinion. its understandable that you need guidance. I know i said i wont and will not let you guys down. And I'm not about to back down or let things go. From dealing with text not even with a simple hello more of hey what colors did you decide on? hey what mascot or prom venue did you choose? hey can we go and have an event to do this and do that to help fund this..? or even to why are you always on your phone? why are you going out so much? hey you still playing ball? and to the be here at 1 at this meeting. hanging out on this date. meet me here for this big event to save the animals Go wash dishes go do the laundry...Im happy that you guys need me it's comforting to know that but it can be a tad bit overwhelming i never said that it was going to be a piece of cake or just a stroll in the park. Im just saying that i feel isolated like im just poured with work and friends dont understand i know i know. no one told me to run for president it was ultimately my choice i wasn't blaming anyone for this i know that i decided to undertake these situations myself. idk in the end i just feel like i have no one. well i guess that is just my duty. is to serve..

Prom

06.05.10
SATS! I think i failed it. actually i know i failed it but hey lets see how i do and then i work on it and ill talk about that later. then me and vera finished erly cause we only took two subjects and then wanted to leave. so we were like lets take the dash and we did then it turned to this hill we were like O.O WHERE ARE WE GOING?! so we got off and then started walking lol! what an adventure it was. Pretty scary i mean we got lost but we werent worrried well i wasnt. passed by this usc hospital and like right next to it was a juvenile court hahah how ironic.

WHOOO! PROM! that place was alright but it was really fun!
Got ready at sandys
lol i feel loved that my friends care how i look xD
i wasnt even going with anyone just gonna take pics xD LOL yea vera(buck) like broke her back she wanted me to shave my legs and i was like no. so she insisting it so shes shaving them FOR THE FIRST TIME! xD how awkward. but it wasnt at the time. xD and then sandy did my hurrrrr.LMAO i couldnt unclude both of us in the pic AHA! oh well but yea chillen at her house was dope. thanks to her dad for buying yoshinoya for me and buck btw. :D LMAO she was basically in mother mode getting my hair done telling me put on lotion and all that stuff xD
oh how i adore my friends.

THEN PROM CAME!.
went to alinas house to get a ride to fendis and prom.
got there took a whole bunch of pics of everyone (since i was the photographer) and got one with the group . :) O6.05.10 <3.

and the rest just fell into place. :)

ps. will remember this day.

I MADE IT!

05.27.10 <3
:D so this was the day where i have made it. Honestly.
the day started off okay i guess brought items to school and then to the asian room to figure out
the container that we were gonna use for strawberry lemonade went missing! -___-" out of all days that day just had to be that day. The day felt so rushed i mean had a sub in mccrarys so left and did things to set up and made posters and all that mumbo jumbo aha. Ok so lets get to where we set up our table and ingrediants to create this big assembly line to construct this chicken tostada i mean our table was probably the biggest next to humanitas hahaa! but yea at first the sales were slow then it gradually picked up oh man ridiculous stuff. so while i was making them i all sudden here my friend eric go
'liz they're calling you up front'
me-what? they are?
eric and group-yea they have been
i thought he was joking though cause i didnt hear anything but i was like i guess ill go just to make sure whats happening. It turns out that they were looking for me! xD thanks eric.
so then stirpe started talking and so was tom about whos gonna be the next president and things and then my heart was basically beating out of my chest. i felt my hands get sweaty(eww) and my breath was getting heavy. Tom was going to hand the gavel i must say i was ohh man i feel stupid everyone dressed up so nicely except for me. so then he walked back and fourth to joke around to build the tension and he stood in betweeen me and lee and i was just like oh man i lost.i lost then i look down cause i didnt want to cry then i look up tom hands me the gavel i was just in FUCKING SHOCK NO JOKE! IT WAS JUST LIKE !!!!!!?!!!!? YOU ARE FUCKING KIDDING ME I COULDNT HAVE WON I COULDNT! so then i got it and i didnt know what to say i didnt know what to do but throw my arm in the air with the gavel!!! and i was just tooo excited and like day dreaming mode i guess like a trance. well here is also my reaction
aha! thanks corrina! :) but yea i made it.