i guess that's just life.
Saturday, March 19, 2011
the expected has just arrived and made my emotions unexpected.
*sigh.. i was joyfully watching megamind, i felt a sudden vibration from my phone. that person had gotten rejected. As i rush to my room to go online to check where my destiny resides. I anxiously scrabbled around my email looking for my password.. Once i got directed to the log in my heart was beating in slow motion in and out of my chest, as if that one click on my mouse was just deciphering my fate.. i clicked it. while i was seconds away from great happiness or unfortunate depression. i was gathering my emotions and telling myself what ever happens do not cry. that is not the only school that is out there for me. there is always other schools, but i knew my heart was waiting to be fulfilled with joy since it was my dream school since i was young. i remember stepping foot on the campus so inspired so fulfilled. once i clicked on the page and i started to read what it stated. As my heart was setting itself up to squeal like a 5 year old. i catch the words We have carefully reviewed your application and regret that we are unable to offer you admission to the University of California, San Diego. my heart sank so far down into my abdomen like i just swallowed an anchor. Sudden tears just ran down my face like bullets every drop fell into my lap like sharp knives. My body was becoming weak with these words. This can't be true. This is a nightmare. My Dream school has denied me. The school that i long awaited to study and start my adventures in becoming the person i had dreamed of. I understand i am no valedictorian. im not rank in the ranges from 1-100. but these feelings that i have they just shook me down to my weakest point. My mind just flipped me into a world of obliviousness. i am dumb. To you it might be nothing because you might have gotten accepted to a greater school. or maybe you got rejected as well. you may understand what i am going through. Im sorry but the feelings that i have right at this moment enrages me on how i am so dumb. how did i expect to get into a school such as San Diego. But this was just different. this was MY DREAM SCHOOL. i had planned my future around this school. How did i become so dumb and careless. my aspirated dream has just been ripped out of my heart tossed out like a meatless bone to a pack of wolves. no emotions. no safety net. nothing. i understand i should keep my chin up for other schools. i know i will get over it. i know crying and ranting on how its so unbelievable to me is not going to change the results that i have received. but this just puts me in the reality that i am not going to make it to any Uc's. i said ALL OR NOTHING. and i guess i have been placed into the nothing. How can this be? i might be no Einstein but i am nor an idiot. From all the things I've been through i just thought that my glass was going to half filled not half empty this time. just this once. to others the result was probably obvious. Don't get me wrong it was explicit to me too like when ___told me that they didn't get in, its just that 0.1% of me told me that i was going to get in because it was my dream school and i was just destined to go there. Well thanks life, for bitch slapping me in the face and throwing me into a pile of sharpened nails. Like i said before i need no pity. i really don't. the "everything is going to be okay, there's other schools" to me is just i know i saw this coming, i know you're not good enough. i don't blame you guys. I am just plain dumb. I feel like isolating from the world right at this point. sigh* but i thank you for being there....
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
hey look another year!
and im going to give thanks to the people that have been with me and the ones that just came :)
Its just so crazy that it has been a year already i know i have changed... alot to some and common to others. but overall i am glad that i am still breathing and grateful
ps. is not doing this on tumblr cause it would be too long. Alrighttt Here We Goooo Again! ;)
Sandy Queer Lee .- Hey You Queery Bitch! dang what has it been like a million years since we've been friends? not only friends but besties? hahah! well as things went down last spring i can reassure that we are better then ever. hey we will get mad and aggravated at some point right? unfortunately i was just insecure when it happened. Im super grateful that you are still there for me whenever and wherever i need you. i look at the poster you made for me daily since its on my door and i am glad that i can still call you one of my closest friends might i add probably The closest i mean others may not say otherwise but hey w.e thats how i see it. :) and how we still got the same nicknames and our songs are just getting better xD and how we got the same taste in most things maybe a flaw in hollister but thats about it x) just know that ill be for you always too see you in college!<3>
Suk Bitch Li.- HAHAHA! you get a broken heart cause you are a bitch. hahah! but like i said you are a bitch that i cant live with or without hahah i love how we insult eachother every single time yet we meet up with eachother daily. xD i guess its a mutual hate hate friendships youre like the sibling that i never wanted XD but hey youre there for me when things are tough and when things are especially good :) thanks for being there betch. now go play in the streets.
Janice NiggaAssBitch.- HEY MY FOURTHGRADE BUDDAY you seeem like a bitch a emo one might i add. xD you know out of the five we talk shiet towards eachother the most? haha i think if there was a underground tunnel to your house i would be over like everyday xD and we can go on our mini adventures to pho or boba and other things. i love how everything we do is not planned til like we are both thinking of what we want to do and since we got the bus card we are like rich just need to wait for our schoffer for like 30 mins. xD and it also has other passengers XD but like i said we may rant on eachother or bitch at things but i know we will hang tight like a skater boys skinny jeans and we will forever go on to XXI and post link to eachother and then not buy it and you will continue buy your useless things while i bitch at you for doing it. hahah! ahhh we just need to go venture out and about again since we got our LICENSE :)
Vera Buck Lau. Hey YOU UNGRATEFUL BITCH haha! i love how its been like what 5 months and you are still classified under that xD hey thats what you get for being ungrateful and speechless xD hey broo im glad you decided to play ball this year mann we be up and around
townnn hahah and you are like probably the only one that gets what i am saying though infront of the five you are like o.O YOU BITCH! such a jerkkk. xD anyways i like to say that you are the nicest out of the five but i would laugh XD but hey look on the bright side we stuck with eachothers bull since 4th grade so we all good right? xD
Ceejay Seegay Varias.- i must say i put you first because ryan always gets to be first so YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! xD i am grateful that even when you left verdugo and is at the prestigious UCLA you still have time to remember lil O' me xD which i adore i mean you are still there for me even when you have EXAMS to study hahah and even though you and ryan are like famous people at UCLA im glad this underdog is not forgotten haha :) and i like how i can take trips to your house and tackle you down even when you are sleeping . <33
Ryan Kury Buenviaje.- Mister BeenVeryGay. We have caught up from time to time and i am glad you have the bestest time at UCLA. but i can reassure you that this liz phan is still grateful for that day she met you at starbucks with the Suk Li bitch that was the best time maybe we should rewind that event and do it again. hhahaha like hrs before me and suk graduate xD dangg that would be a trip anyways like i said im still grateful for it and forever will be i mean you and ceejay are super famous there and you live at far far away land its hard to communicate but i cherish every moment when we do get to catch up :) <33
Josephine ____ Ho.- i put a longass underscore between your first and last name cause i have so many different nicknames for you and we never really kept one XD we gotten ALOT ALOT closer over this year and indeed i am once again grateful that it happened because we tell each other everything from how your jersey shrunk or my skin got softer XD like everything and its weird when we dont see each other cause its like wtf are you okay? or are you mad? hahaha i mean i can see us still arguing over the stupidest things even when i graduate from i should put my hair up or down or from you getting a bow or not mann and we have the weirdest and cherishable moments hahah our adventures are like crazy but it makes sense but all im gonna say is that you are LAME like your SHOES hahahahaah!!!!!!! thats right went there. :P
Melissa Fruit Uy.- though no one really knows you from my side of friends you will always be one of my closests hahah since 4th grade bruh and parting our ways and how we just reunite like we never part when we do meet up? i like that hahah i know that our families are close and we call eachother family when people ask. just to let you know i got your back always. and we always keep it freshhh xD
Quyen Kenny Khai Vong.- you are an odd guy hahaha! but i think i will only receive compliments from you hahaha though we havent talked at all i still appreciate your random checkups and your fatherly lectures i am grateful for them especially when you try to act serious its really hysterical hahaha then you go off on how rude i am hahaah. i know that me typing this is gonna make you tell me things but i still want to tell you that i am here 100% of the time so dont hate! hahaha you probably are shaking your head going why elizabeth why? hahaha but i am going to leave it at you are a different type of guy that is charming and adoring and you are my friend so im here always :).
John Feonessbitch Reyes.- Lets FOREVER HOPE YOU WILL NEVER READ THIS. because somehow this year you decide to go all homo to me which is weird hahaha! anyways budddy you are my best friend we all know that since 7th grade hahaha people still call you cute which is still odd to me but anyways im grateful that you still take your time out to check on me though i will bully you and call you mean things hahaha or you will take the initiative and walk with me so i wont be a loner or talk to me over the phone when i am scared walking home. i know i am a punani >_<" but ultimately i am grateful to have you still here calling me your best friend though i treat you like crap i should show that i appreciate you but im scared i might lose you instead so i dont want to get too close hahaah but you are super wise and i like going to you for advice hahaha! oohh you forever will be my bitch :')
Andrea Behbeh Quero. - DWS SHIEET hahahaah! i like how we text eachother from day and night every day hahaha even though we have nothing to tell eachother or when we get near eachother we catch eachother's lingo xD and laugh our asses off when we catch ourselves doing something stupid. it meant alot when you said that me and treesa are the ones that stick to you the longest and i agree that i will be here for you always behbeh. hahah and we going to be BEASTING it once jan.10 comes hahah with our gear and swag well low key but you know ;) i am truly grateful that we are this close and is gonna conquer the world day by day :]
Madison Lil B' Varias.- i meant to say Malorie ;D hahah! anyways i would say its odd how we met from your brother but i like how our friendship BLOSSOMED into something great haha! i would never imagine us being friends cause i usually dont talk to friends siblings but hey you are an exception haahah! i mean how could i stay away from the little varias? though theres two more below you xD anyways im glad that we met and talked from ryans party and how we have our little insides. i am grateful that you trust me and call me your friend hahaah! i apologize for not being able to hang with you at times but you understand hahaah and you are such a sweeeb buts its ok you are the exception. xD
Jana Ventbuddy Dayo.- i am truly forever grateful that your house is located like ___ away hahaah just in case someone was reading this and wanted to stalk you oh you know ;) hahaha anyways you are like too cool for me hahah well too cool for me and jo xD we chill and just hang and talk about the lamest things but hey what are friends for? anyways i enjoy youre dweeebyness haha! oh you know since you like that word and all but i guess you and madison are like the underclassmen that i can truly trust hhaaha well see you like in a week xD
The Girls Varsity Basketball Team. (Rugrats)- you guys know that i love you guysss hahaha like i said you guys are my second family. i love you guys til the end of time. on and off the court. i know we yell and stuff but bs put aside you guys are why i enjoy playing and wouldnt change a thing well maybe the tournaments we played or the games and maybe the score x) hahah! but overall cant wait to bust our asses off when we get back to show everyone like daisy would say ''we said wasssuuup'' xD <3>
Adrine Idiot Gdakian.- Oh man arent you dumb? xD jk oh gdkian our conversations and adventures never end up not interesting and amusing im so glad that you are my favorite armo. hahah! and you are super smart to the max like sometimes i ask myself why you hang out with low status people like me? but then i was like wait THE HISTORY we have since 7th grade hahah good times and always will be haha especially when we have our random moments and we are cracking up like crazy while suck just stares at us XD oh man promise me this dont forget me once you become a millionaire and is married to shia xD
Hiroshi Terodactyl Abdul.- i might have spelled your middle name wrong but anyways you are A BITCH there is not one day that goes by when we see eachother that is that we dont ARGUE. every single time we argue over the silliest things. I CANT JUST TAKE YOUR SHIET hahaha! jk but i guess we are eachothers stress relievers since we yell at eachother all the time causing a scene and all that crap but hey i must admit i enjoy all that laughter and commotion we start. xD with you and treesa hahah i am grateful for the times we shared in the leadership room hahaah and i appreciate that even though you are busy you help out the girls team :]
MayMayVanLy-Hey you you! hahaha. anyways may may i adore your personality i think you should name your alter ego the one that comes out from time to time the one that yells at everyone yea we should name it sometime. hahah! i love how you go to concerts and all that and you tell me things i love how secretive it is and somehow soojin comes and yells it all out xD jk but i am grateful for you cause when im down and i dont show it you come along and say the most random thing and its like hahah ohh may then i light up :) i appreciate that and all the little things you do hahah aghh may I LOVE YOU! <3
Megan Brahhhhdarr Albano.- supp broo still waiting on that letter. xD anyways dooode looking back damnnn we probably changed alot in style but our personality's are still intact well i hope xD anyways doode i think its hysterical how we make up names for people its catchy and make sense and when we talk we would make analogies for it and the only people who get it is us! hahahah gooood times i know we are gonna last broo hahaha see you soon!
Dianne Babe Ventinilla.- hey babbbe ;) i think its funny how we refer eachother that and people are like JEALOUS of me getting to call you that! hahahah i dont know how we really got together it just happened and im grateful that we did! hahaha we've gotten closer haha we probably dont hang as much but when we do its fun to catch up hahaha and i like how you bake me things and serenade me the same song xD while i dont do much XD im sorrry that im not talented in anything hahaha! but yes its been a year and a month WHOOOT! hahahaahah! im glad that you can tell me things still. 11.22.09
Valerie BonQuiQui Tran. brooooo i am grateful that we pair up to punk other people it is very fun and enjoyable to do to others and i am glad you are the person to do that with :D hahah until you pair up with jo -___- hahahah! but then i got vera! xD anyways i like sitting next to you on the bus then when the alarm goes off and we give eachother the loook laugh and are just like DOES NO ONE ELSE HERE THAT?! and how we punch eachother when we see yellow cars on the road xD. i mean you might go against me at times but i got your side! 100/100 times broo hahaha.
Chris Fatgut Raxsanachai?- hey bf! hahahahaha you finally admit that xD anyways you are lame in all aspects and im glad that you are lame because you get what i am saying even when i dont make sense hahaha xD and we are like twins i guess without even knowing it xD but i still hate you. <3>Denny Fatty Feltwell.<3->thissss charmerr hahaah you are there to always give me a pick me up. i like that and i thank you. :)
Annie MIA Kwan.- where have you beeen? i really hope we are going to hangout this sunday :] just kickback and relax itll be good :] reminiscing and such bout the good ol' naive and innocent days hahaha dang can you believe it we are seniors? wooah alot has happened. but something that will remain the same is that we are still close friends :]
Carolyn Fierce Ho.- HAHAHAH i dont know when we hang out its a whole different story we are always chillno matter what and we catch up on things. we joke. we are close. i like those times haha till this day i still got that text from the day after camp oh mann i know that we will remain close even though we barely see eachother. haaha i mean we are going to be cits together :D right? hahah exactly
Mabel FirstLady Luu.- hey from peppa inferno to my first lady? wusss goood hahaha! i enjoy the random legit lines you say hahah from time to time or when you bust out something really crazy and we are all amazed hahaha im glad i made you my first lady :)
Patricia LO De Leon.- hahah love saying your name haha! mannn since what my sophomore year? i say we connected right off the back from stressing like no tomorrow about the lamest things but i wouldnt take it back for the world if i can do it again i would stress it with you but of course! hahaah im glad we can have our deep talks even when we dont talk at all xD
Aileen Miss Thang Paquillo.- Missy you teach me so much from swag and beauty xD i love how you make my day at the randomest times i appreciate but of course. greatfuullll for it. i am glad that you enjoy making me girly and i am glad that you are super cool and hang with the lame keeds haha! idk but asses for life! xD love you!!! and esp. when we have the most hysterical random deep talks.
Kevin Cheater Vicente.- You make me want to go and kill myself. and that may be a understatement xD anyways doode love that we can always tease eachother without getting butthurt well idk about your end but mine isnt xD but everytime we talk its like seriously funny like its in the middle between serious and jokes haha! i respect your words and what you say because i do get it. and you sir been through alot and admire that i would say im grateful to have a hater like you in my life XD but best recognize that you are CHINESE! xD
Eric Nobody Avilez.- I hope you understand that you are lucky that you made it on this list XD jk i wouldve gave everyone their little excerpt on here but you know i guess you were lucky enough get squeezed in here. well you know things will always be up and down and all around but you remembering that beach day we went it was awesome and you are a cool kid to chill with when we detach you from the hype and clothes -__- xD but im glad that you are there to be a little dweeb and another mexican boy in the asian room XD
Craig Bear Alfon. -wuss gooood? hahah! i like that we talk through tumblr. ooops dont mean to cheat on you blogspot. 0:) anyways we talk about the randomest things and clown on eachother haha! good vibes. :] MISS YOU!
Jamie Phb Suarez.-PHB! i will forever hug you tightly and try to tackle you whenever i see you hahah now that you are gone i miss messing with you and untying your shoelaces hahah
Jodie Pickle/Jdeezy Esaki.-deezy my pickle ickleee you will forever be my favorite korean. just remember that i will always be there for you always! <3>Grayson BBFFFFF~ Jennings.- hahah that line will keep going forever and ever we are 47% related might i add hahah <3>
Manny Boo Benavides.- I LOVE YOU! hahaha thought you are thousands and thousands miles away i enjoy your energy h
ahah and talks :)
Nicolaus Nemo Francisco.- you taught me alot this year. hahah im glad we are friends. pinky promise. hahah :)
I met alot of new people this year don't get me wrong. the good the bad and the ugly all of that happened this year. hhaah! but yea win and lose some. THATS ALL FOR NOW FOLKS! lets keep this short and simple. THANK YOU ALL. sorry for not mentioning it is currently 2:30 am and i am dead.
Its just so crazy that it has been a year already i know i have changed... alot to some and common to others. but overall i am glad that i am still breathing and grateful
ps. is not doing this on tumblr cause it would be too long. Alrighttt Here We Goooo Again! ;)
~2010~
Sandy Queer Lee .- Hey You Queery Bitch! dang what has it been like a million years since we've been friends? not only friends but besties? hahah! well as things went down last spring i can reassure that we are better then ever. hey we will get mad and aggravated at some point right? unfortunately i was just insecure when it happened. Im super grateful that you are still there for me whenever and wherever i need you. i look at the poster you made for me daily since its on my door and i am glad that i can still call you one of my closest friends might i add probably The closest i mean others may not say otherwise but hey w.e thats how i see it. :) and how we still got the same nicknames and our songs are just getting better xD and how we got the same taste in most things maybe a flaw in hollister but thats about it x) just know that ill be for you always too see you in college!<3>
Suk Bitch Li.- HAHAHA! you get a broken heart cause you are a bitch. hahah! but like i said you are a bitch that i cant live with or without hahah i love how we insult eachother every single time yet we meet up with eachother daily. xD i guess its a mutual hate hate friendships youre like the sibling that i never wanted XD but hey youre there for me when things are tough and when things are especially good :) thanks for being there betch. now go play in the streets.
Janice NiggaAssBitch.- HEY MY FOURTHGRADE BUDDAY you seeem like a bitch a emo one might i add. xD you know out of the five we talk shiet towards eachother the most? haha i think if there was a underground tunnel to your house i would be over like everyday xD and we can go on our mini adventures to pho or boba and other things. i love how everything we do is not planned til like we are both thinking of what we want to do and since we got the bus card we are like rich just need to wait for our schoffer for like 30 mins. xD and it also has other passengers XD but like i said we may rant on eachother or bitch at things but i know we will hang tight like a skater boys skinny jeans and we will forever go on to XXI and post link to eachother and then not buy it and you will continue buy your useless things while i bitch at you for doing it. hahah! ahhh we just need to go venture out and about again since we got our LICENSE :)
Vera Buck Lau. Hey YOU UNGRATEFUL BITCH haha! i love how its been like what 5 months and you are still classified under that xD hey thats what you get for being ungrateful and speechless xD hey broo im glad you decided to play ball this year mann we be up and around
townnn hahah and you are like probably the only one that gets what i am saying though infront of the five you are like o.O YOU BITCH! such a jerkkk. xD anyways i like to say that you are the nicest out of the five but i would laugh XD but hey look on the bright side we stuck with eachothers bull since 4th grade so we all good right? xD
Ceejay Seegay Varias.- i must say i put you first because ryan always gets to be first so YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! xD i am grateful that even when you left verdugo and is at the prestigious UCLA you still have time to remember lil O' me xD which i adore i mean you are still there for me even when you have EXAMS to study hahah and even though you and ryan are like famous people at UCLA im glad this underdog is not forgotten haha :) and i like how i can take trips to your house and tackle you down even when you are sleeping . <33
Ryan Kury Buenviaje.- Mister BeenVeryGay. We have caught up from time to time and i am glad you have the bestest time at UCLA. but i can reassure you that this liz phan is still grateful for that day she met you at starbucks with the Suk Li bitch that was the best time maybe we should rewind that event and do it again. hhahaha like hrs before me and suk graduate xD dangg that would be a trip anyways like i said im still grateful for it and forever will be i mean you and ceejay are super famous there and you live at far far away land its hard to communicate but i cherish every moment when we do get to catch up :) <33
Josephine ____ Ho.- i put a longass underscore between your first and last name cause i have so many different nicknames for you and we never really kept one XD we gotten ALOT ALOT closer over this year and indeed i am once again grateful that it happened because we tell each other everything from how your jersey shrunk or my skin got softer XD like everything and its weird when we dont see each other cause its like wtf are you okay? or are you mad? hahaha i mean i can see us still arguing over the stupidest things even when i graduate from i should put my hair up or down or from you getting a bow or not mann and we have the weirdest and cherishable moments hahah our adventures are like crazy but it makes sense but all im gonna say is that you are LAME like your SHOES hahahahaah!!!!!!! thats right went there. :P
Melissa Fruit Uy.- though no one really knows you from my side of friends you will always be one of my closests hahah since 4th grade bruh and parting our ways and how we just reunite like we never part when we do meet up? i like that hahah i know that our families are close and we call eachother family when people ask. just to let you know i got your back always. and we always keep it freshhh xD
Quyen Kenny Khai Vong.- you are an odd guy hahaha! but i think i will only receive compliments from you hahaha though we havent talked at all i still appreciate your random checkups and your fatherly lectures i am grateful for them especially when you try to act serious its really hysterical hahaha then you go off on how rude i am hahaah. i know that me typing this is gonna make you tell me things but i still want to tell you that i am here 100% of the time so dont hate! hahaha you probably are shaking your head going why elizabeth why? hahaha but i am going to leave it at you are a different type of guy that is charming and adoring and you are my friend so im here always :).
John Feonessbitch Reyes.- Lets FOREVER HOPE YOU WILL NEVER READ THIS. because somehow this year you decide to go all homo to me which is weird hahaha! anyways budddy you are my best friend we all know that since 7th grade hahaha people still call you cute which is still odd to me but anyways im grateful that you still take your time out to check on me though i will bully you and call you mean things hahaha or you will take the initiative and walk with me so i wont be a loner or talk to me over the phone when i am scared walking home. i know i am a punani >_<" but ultimately i am grateful to have you still here calling me your best friend though i treat you like crap i should show that i appreciate you but im scared i might lose you instead so i dont want to get too close hahaah but you are super wise and i like going to you for advice hahaha! oohh you forever will be my bitch :')
Andrea Behbeh Quero. - DWS SHIEET hahahaah! i like how we text eachother from day and night every day hahaha even though we have nothing to tell eachother or when we get near eachother we catch eachother's lingo xD and laugh our asses off when we catch ourselves doing something stupid. it meant alot when you said that me and treesa are the ones that stick to you the longest and i agree that i will be here for you always behbeh. hahah and we going to be BEASTING it once jan.10 comes hahah with our gear and swag well low key but you know ;) i am truly grateful that we are this close and is gonna conquer the world day by day :]
Madison Lil B' Varias.- i meant to say Malorie ;D hahah! anyways i would say its odd how we met from your brother but i like how our friendship BLOSSOMED into something great haha! i would never imagine us being friends cause i usually dont talk to friends siblings but hey you are an exception haahah! i mean how could i stay away from the little varias? though theres two more below you xD anyways im glad that we met and talked from ryans party and how we have our little insides. i am grateful that you trust me and call me your friend hahaah! i apologize for not being able to hang with you at times but you understand hahaah and you are such a sweeeb buts its ok you are the exception. xD
Jana Ventbuddy Dayo.- i am truly forever grateful that your house is located like ___ away hahaah just in case someone was reading this and wanted to stalk you oh you know ;) hahaha anyways you are like too cool for me hahah well too cool for me and jo xD we chill and just hang and talk about the lamest things but hey what are friends for? anyways i enjoy youre dweeebyness haha! oh you know since you like that word and all but i guess you and madison are like the underclassmen that i can truly trust hhaaha well see you like in a week xD
The Girls Varsity Basketball Team. (Rugrats)- you guys know that i love you guysss hahaha like i said you guys are my second family. i love you guys til the end of time. on and off the court. i know we yell and stuff but bs put aside you guys are why i enjoy playing and wouldnt change a thing well maybe the tournaments we played or the games and maybe the score x) hahah! but overall cant wait to bust our asses off when we get back to show everyone like daisy would say ''we said wasssuuup'' xD <3>
Adrine Idiot Gdakian.- Oh man arent you dumb? xD jk oh gdkian our conversations and adventures never end up not interesting and amusing im so glad that you are my favorite armo. hahah! and you are super smart to the max like sometimes i ask myself why you hang out with low status people like me? but then i was like wait THE HISTORY we have since 7th grade hahah good times and always will be haha especially when we have our random moments and we are cracking up like crazy while suck just stares at us XD oh man promise me this dont forget me once you become a millionaire and is married to shia xD
Hiroshi Terodactyl Abdul.- i might have spelled your middle name wrong but anyways you are A BITCH there is not one day that goes by when we see eachother that is that we dont ARGUE. every single time we argue over the silliest things. I CANT JUST TAKE YOUR SHIET hahaha! jk but i guess we are eachothers stress relievers since we yell at eachother all the time causing a scene and all that crap but hey i must admit i enjoy all that laughter and commotion we start. xD with you and treesa hahah i am grateful for the times we shared in the leadership room hahaah and i appreciate that even though you are busy you help out the girls team :]
MayMayVanLy-Hey you you! hahaha. anyways may may i adore your personality i think you should name your alter ego the one that comes out from time to time the one that yells at everyone yea we should name it sometime. hahah! i love how you go to concerts and all that and you tell me things i love how secretive it is and somehow soojin comes and yells it all out xD jk but i am grateful for you cause when im down and i dont show it you come along and say the most random thing and its like hahah ohh may then i light up :) i appreciate that and all the little things you do hahah aghh may I LOVE YOU! <3
Megan Brahhhhdarr Albano.- supp broo still waiting on that letter. xD anyways dooode looking back damnnn we probably changed alot in style but our personality's are still intact well i hope xD anyways doode i think its hysterical how we make up names for people its catchy and make sense and when we talk we would make analogies for it and the only people who get it is us! hahahah gooood times i know we are gonna last broo hahaha see you soon!
Dianne Babe Ventinilla.- hey babbbe ;) i think its funny how we refer eachother that and people are like JEALOUS of me getting to call you that! hahahah i dont know how we really got together it just happened and im grateful that we did! hahaha we've gotten closer haha we probably dont hang as much but when we do its fun to catch up hahaha and i like how you bake me things and serenade me the same song xD while i dont do much XD im sorrry that im not talented in anything hahaha! but yes its been a year and a month WHOOOT! hahahaahah! im glad that you can tell me things still. 11.22.09
Valerie BonQuiQui Tran. brooooo i am grateful that we pair up to punk other people it is very fun and enjoyable to do to others and i am glad you are the person to do that with :D hahah until you pair up with jo -___- hahahah! but then i got vera! xD anyways i like sitting next to you on the bus then when the alarm goes off and we give eachother the loook laugh and are just like DOES NO ONE ELSE HERE THAT?! and how we punch eachother when we see yellow cars on the road xD. i mean you might go against me at times but i got your side! 100/100 times broo hahaha.
Chris Fatgut Raxsanachai?- hey bf! hahahahaha you finally admit that xD anyways you are lame in all aspects and im glad that you are lame because you get what i am saying even when i dont make sense hahaha xD and we are like twins i guess without even knowing it xD but i still hate you. <3>Denny Fatty Feltwell.<3->thissss charmerr hahaah you are there to always give me a pick me up. i like that and i thank you. :)
Annie MIA Kwan.- where have you beeen? i really hope we are going to hangout this sunday :] just kickback and relax itll be good :] reminiscing and such bout the good ol' naive and innocent days hahaha dang can you believe it we are seniors? wooah alot has happened. but something that will remain the same is that we are still close friends :]
Carolyn Fierce Ho.- HAHAHAH i dont know when we hang out its a whole different story we are always chillno matter what and we catch up on things. we joke. we are close. i like those times haha till this day i still got that text from the day after camp oh mann i know that we will remain close even though we barely see eachother. haaha i mean we are going to be cits together :D right? hahah exactly
Mabel FirstLady Luu.- hey from peppa inferno to my first lady? wusss goood hahaha! i enjoy the random legit lines you say hahah from time to time or when you bust out something really crazy and we are all amazed hahaha im glad i made you my first lady :)
Patricia LO De Leon.- hahah love saying your name haha! mannn since what my sophomore year? i say we connected right off the back from stressing like no tomorrow about the lamest things but i wouldnt take it back for the world if i can do it again i would stress it with you but of course! hahaah im glad we can have our deep talks even when we dont talk at all xD
Aileen Miss Thang Paquillo.- Missy you teach me so much from swag and beauty xD i love how you make my day at the randomest times i appreciate but of course. greatfuullll for it. i am glad that you enjoy making me girly and i am glad that you are super cool and hang with the lame keeds haha! idk but asses for life! xD love you!!! and esp. when we have the most hysterical random deep talks.
Kevin Cheater Vicente.- You make me want to go and kill myself. and that may be a understatement xD anyways doode love that we can always tease eachother without getting butthurt well idk about your end but mine isnt xD but everytime we talk its like seriously funny like its in the middle between serious and jokes haha! i respect your words and what you say because i do get it. and you sir been through alot and admire that i would say im grateful to have a hater like you in my life XD but best recognize that you are CHINESE! xD
Eric Nobody Avilez.- I hope you understand that you are lucky that you made it on this list XD jk i wouldve gave everyone their little excerpt on here but you know i guess you were lucky enough get squeezed in here. well you know things will always be up and down and all around but you remembering that beach day we went it was awesome and you are a cool kid to chill with when we detach you from the hype and clothes -__- xD but im glad that you are there to be a little dweeb and another mexican boy in the asian room XD
Craig Bear Alfon. -wuss gooood? hahah! i like that we talk through tumblr. ooops dont mean to cheat on you blogspot. 0:) anyways we talk about the randomest things and clown on eachother haha! good vibes. :] MISS YOU!
Jamie Phb Suarez.-PHB! i will forever hug you tightly and try to tackle you whenever i see you hahah now that you are gone i miss messing with you and untying your shoelaces hahah
Jodie Pickle/Jdeezy Esaki.-deezy my pickle ickleee you will forever be my favorite korean. just remember that i will always be there for you always! <3>Grayson BBFFFFF~ Jennings.- hahah that line will keep going forever and ever we are 47% related might i add hahah <3>
Manny Boo Benavides.- I LOVE YOU! hahaha thought you are thousands and thousands miles away i enjoy your energy h
ahah and talks :)
Nicolaus Nemo Francisco.- you taught me alot this year. hahah im glad we are friends. pinky promise. hahah :)
I met alot of new people this year don't get me wrong. the good the bad and the ugly all of that happened this year. hhaah! but yea win and lose some. THATS ALL FOR NOW FOLKS! lets keep this short and simple. THANK YOU ALL. sorry for not mentioning it is currently 2:30 am and i am dead.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
ohh pooooeey
have you ever look forward to something. to find out it was just a slap in the face at the door?
I've been through that too many times . so much that my face is numb and its like a daily routine. how am i suppose to say OMG MY SENIOR YEAR IS AMAZING. when its not. i understand its like been 2 weeks since school started and things probably haven't fell into place yet. well that's an understatement. Nothing really in these past 2 weeks really made me go WHOO THIS IS MY SENIOR YEAR AND THINGS ARE GOING TO HAPPEN. nope none of that sorry to burst your bubble, but this is no high school musical. I know somewhere in the near future things will brighten maybe its cause of the heat. but as for now i don't look forward to school like my past 3 years in highschool. its more of a shrug. I love being the sbp but my passion to have the school spirited is just another bitch slap to the face cause in reality kids at verdugo hate the school. they call it verdrugo i mean i am guilty for calling it that sometimes, but thats not the problem. the problem is i hate how kids come to me and go OMG ! we have to do this, this, this, and that. and they don't even follow through with one thing that happens at our school. well students. i apologize for my naggingness but HOW THE FUCK DO YOU EXPECT TO FOLLOW THROUGH WITH MY PLANS IF YOU DONT SHOW UP?. its not only that sports. ha like i see the team being so pumped and ready to win this year and the coach doesnt have shiet straight like are you joking? im here and im ready to dominate while you are doing some shiet and you think you sending me text saying you have to do something is going to make me feel any better? no. i can be in tennis they are dedicated coach is there. i love tennis too but basketball is my hype. i want to tennis because the people in there want to make it. i want that drive. the whole money thing is like a pain pay this pay that. and worst of all my mains are all pratically busy. like its so hard to find time to breathe when no one is there to tell you to calm down. stuck out like a sore thumb. no one to really sit down and ask if you are okay. like im sure they are stressing like i do and feel the way i do.people from time to time do ask how i am. its not that i dont want to reply my real answer its just too much. and once i say it what you are going to say is not gonna make it better. i don't need someone to sugar coat my shiet. i dont need pity. all i need is the time and energy i put into something returned. im not gonna seat somewhere and tell you that i want to cry and just drop everything i know my duties i know my life i know what i chose.i know the consequences.i know moping about it isnt gonna change anything. i know there's people out there in worse situations.
why have hope for something if you know its gonna be false.
I've been through that too many times . so much that my face is numb and its like a daily routine. how am i suppose to say OMG MY SENIOR YEAR IS AMAZING. when its not. i understand its like been 2 weeks since school started and things probably haven't fell into place yet. well that's an understatement. Nothing really in these past 2 weeks really made me go WHOO THIS IS MY SENIOR YEAR AND THINGS ARE GOING TO HAPPEN. nope none of that sorry to burst your bubble, but this is no high school musical. I know somewhere in the near future things will brighten maybe its cause of the heat. but as for now i don't look forward to school like my past 3 years in highschool. its more of a shrug. I love being the sbp but my passion to have the school spirited is just another bitch slap to the face cause in reality kids at verdugo hate the school. they call it verdrugo i mean i am guilty for calling it that sometimes, but thats not the problem. the problem is i hate how kids come to me and go OMG ! we have to do this, this, this, and that. and they don't even follow through with one thing that happens at our school. well students. i apologize for my naggingness but HOW THE FUCK DO YOU EXPECT TO FOLLOW THROUGH WITH MY PLANS IF YOU DONT SHOW UP?. its not only that sports. ha like i see the team being so pumped and ready to win this year and the coach doesnt have shiet straight like are you joking? im here and im ready to dominate while you are doing some shiet and you think you sending me text saying you have to do something is going to make me feel any better? no. i can be in tennis they are dedicated coach is there. i love tennis too but basketball is my hype. i want to tennis because the people in there want to make it. i want that drive. the whole money thing is like a pain pay this pay that. and worst of all my mains are all pratically busy. like its so hard to find time to breathe when no one is there to tell you to calm down. stuck out like a sore thumb. no one to really sit down and ask if you are okay. like im sure they are stressing like i do and feel the way i do.people from time to time do ask how i am. its not that i dont want to reply my real answer its just too much. and once i say it what you are going to say is not gonna make it better. i don't need someone to sugar coat my shiet. i dont need pity. all i need is the time and energy i put into something returned. im not gonna seat somewhere and tell you that i want to cry and just drop everything i know my duties i know my life i know what i chose.i know the consequences.i know moping about it isnt gonna change anything. i know there's people out there in worse situations.
why have hope for something if you know its gonna be false.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Dear Jaddis Hy.
YOU BETTTER VISIT MISS JADDIS HY.
and bring your lips moisturized lips por favor i dont want to feel guilty;)
Sunday, August 8, 2010
i don't normally post this but...
GUILTY PLEASURES......
yuppp if you take me to portos. i will love you forever.
yuppp if you take me to portos. i will love you forever.
Friday, August 6, 2010
What The Buck?!
August 3rd/4th 2010.<3
lol yea it was her birthday on the 4th. August 4th.
i already wrote to her on tumblr so. i would just like to post pictures and explain my side of the story that day.
Ok tried to message it out through face book so the plan will go smoothly turns out everything was planned on the day of which was august 3rd. Ok so i went to work then picked up suck then rushed home did my hurr and went to go take pics for yearbook and leadership :)
(man i seriously hope it doesnt turn out fugly)
anyways! so then dropped off suck cause the plan was originally that sandy suck and janice eventually couldn't make it and suck wanted to go sell her tickets. so got back home around 2 ish? called jan to make sure things are going according to plan then we talked on aim. i called vera to tell her dress nice and shiet cause earlier in the day i got the message that sandy was going to dress nice then we all had to dress nice so i called vera and made sure she was going to dress freaking nice! ok then later on i call up vera to tell her to come over though it was like 4ish and we werent going to leave til 8 so then called up suck and ask her if the plans are going the way we want it then find out that FREAKING VERA CALLED JAN AND THEY WOULD NOT STOP TALKING TO EACHOTHER somehow jan screwed up the story alittle and then i had to call to interuppt the convo and end it so then vera was on her way made sure i had no evidence on the computer for her to see when she came. so then she comes im like fuhhh so then we chill and things and im like going with the flow asking her what i should wear and she said wear the dress... then freaking get a call that i dont have to dress nice F^CK perfect timing right? like when vera tells me and we both agree and now i dont have to dress nice? fml. so i was like nah nah its gonna be cold trying to pull an excuse out of my ass to not wear it then i decide to say something like
l:let me wear your shirt!
v:uhhh?
l: yea lets switch you wear my dress and ill wear your shirt!
v:wtf! no you are wearing the dress
there was alot more then that which then resulted me tackling her trying to strip her for the shirt it was all a blur since i was just freaking out and stuff i mean it was majorty awkward just cause i was half naked pulling her shirt xD
c:lets go!
l&v: aight
suck: try to lag time as much as possible cause we want to seat outside on the patio.
so we lagged it and things and then they were talking about who l
ikes what type of lexus or w.e and im like hyped for the surprise so i text suck telling her we are off the freeway and they got the table and shes like when you walk lag it ok then me and vera get off
c: right here?
l:yes thanks
v: why isnt your bro coming
l:uhh
c: ima go meet up with my friends at the parking lot ill come v: o.O ok
alright we get there and i stop her make her stand so i can figure out where the others are ask she told me to go look if i like. so then when i open the door i pointed and she was like
v:???
l: here!
v: uhhh?
l: SURPRISE!
s,s,j: SURPRISE
v:O.O :D :O in shock
lets just say that night was amazing. hahahah
So yea. California Breezys. Mains. Suk.Janice.Vera.Liz.Sandy
Smart.Scary.Friendly.Socialize.Fantasize
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
phasing?
Lately I've been out of it I'm not gonna lie.
From Friends to School. I know its summer and i know its time for relaxing and stuff
but with the time im stuck with now from today to august 16 i don't believe I have enough time to even sit down and take a deep breath with this time restraint. It is understandable that you need my help its understandable that you need a friend. Its understandable that you need a leader. its understandable that you need a shoulder to cry on or ears to listen to. its understandable that you need a opinion. its understandable that you need guidance. I know i said i wont and will not let you guys down. And I'm not about to back down or let things go. From dealing with text not even with a simple hello more of hey what colors did you decide on? hey what mascot or prom venue did you choose? hey can we go and have an event to do this and do that to help fund this..? or even to why are you always on your phone? why are you going out so much? hey you still playing ball? and to the be here at 1 at this meeting. hanging out on this date. meet me here for this big event to save the animals Go wash dishes go do the laundry...Im happy that you guys need me it's comforting to know that but it can be a tad bit overwhelming i never said that it was going to be a piece of cake or just a stroll in the park. Im just saying that i feel isolated like im just poured with work and friends dont understand i know i know. no one told me to run for president it was ultimately my choice i wasn't blaming anyone for this i know that i decided to undertake these situations myself. idk in the end i just feel like i have no one. well i guess that is just my duty. is to serve..
From Friends to School. I know its summer and i know its time for relaxing and stuff
but with the time im stuck with now from today to august 16 i don't believe I have enough time to even sit down and take a deep breath with this time restraint. It is understandable that you need my help its understandable that you need a friend. Its understandable that you need a leader. its understandable that you need a shoulder to cry on or ears to listen to. its understandable that you need a opinion. its understandable that you need guidance. I know i said i wont and will not let you guys down. And I'm not about to back down or let things go. From dealing with text not even with a simple hello more of hey what colors did you decide on? hey what mascot or prom venue did you choose? hey can we go and have an event to do this and do that to help fund this..? or even to why are you always on your phone? why are you going out so much? hey you still playing ball? and to the be here at 1 at this meeting. hanging out on this date. meet me here for this big event to save the animals Go wash dishes go do the laundry...Im happy that you guys need me it's comforting to know that but it can be a tad bit overwhelming i never said that it was going to be a piece of cake or just a stroll in the park. Im just saying that i feel isolated like im just poured with work and friends dont understand i know i know. no one told me to run for president it was ultimately my choice i wasn't blaming anyone for this i know that i decided to undertake these situations myself. idk in the end i just feel like i have no one. well i guess that is just my duty. is to serve..
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